Saturday, April 24, 2010

I missed this . .

I haven't blogged in a while. I'm not sure exactly why but blogging, Facebooking and just generally being social have been too confronting, too hard, too easy to avoid and to overwhelming. To many people I've fallen off the face of the planet. Kind of an online way of pulling the blanket over my face.

I've been busy trying to find my happy place.

I have a new job that I love and I'm doing well in. I enjoy it. I'm confident in it. It's ordered and structured and has answers. I don't feel like I'm drowning every day in uncertainty and self-doubt. I'm excelling and after reminding myself to be nice to myself and cut myself some slack for not remembering everything instantly, I'm picking it up really quickly. And it's safe. No desk throwing, no threats of rape or attack. No violence, no smashed windows, no graffiti and coffee is provided (poor things don't really know how much that's going to cost them in the years to come!)

Mentally I'm doing ok. I'm taking my meds. I'm seeing my psych. I'm doing much, much, much better.

I'm no longer crying every day. And when I do it's not for over 4 hours.

I suppose this post is me pulling back the blanket . . just a little.


  1. I'm so glad to see your post, as I had been wondering how you were doing.

    I'm very pleased to read you are doing so well.


  2. I have thought about you heaps over the past few months and was just gettin ready to message you. I did want to give you a bit of space because I know how annoying it gets when you have 1000 people going are you ok????

    Whats this new job then? It sounds perfect! Any perks?? For me?? haha

    love ya matey xx